Fool

I forgot my place, the rules and behaviours i learnt before, clouded by my happiness once more.

Now with a hurtful and deeply wounding emotional pain, feeling even lower that its all due to me again. Down, down, i go. Like water down the plughole. Further down into myself with tears and silence.

Never to go up again or the down will return once more. A fool, that is what i am. Happiness is to be care-free. And that
            can
               never,
                      ever,
                           be me.